ON LIFE, AS IT IS…

After more than a month of being down the weather, I feel great to be feeling better today. The year gone by did not go down too well with me as the latter part was mostly spent in the doctor’s corridor. Amidst all the work and the festive rush I did feel left out, annoyed and depressed but those days are gone and things have started to appear normal again. Now I only hope for better yummy days… :)

Years have gone by in such a rush that I hardly had any time for illness except for the common cold or headache. Life was always a breeze. But after being laid up in bed for almost a month due to typhoid, reality has hit me real hard… and how. After all the energy and stamina has been zapped, I never thought I would enjoy the normal things in life again. Depressing thought I know. And yes, there are people out there in conditions a thousand times worse than mine. But since I was so unprepared to be out of activity, it did bring my nerves down.

Staying in bed for days on end has been a time of retrospection for me. So in a way, it has done me good too. After one miserable thought to another, things did settle down and I got the time to read books, after a really long long time. Nice happy motivating books for a change. I have realized that I read too much of heavy philosophical books that reading peppy books was like an outing for me. Now I intend to include more of them in my reading list. Of course, I also got the chance to finish up many of my unread magazines gathering dust long after I had just flipped the pages and never really went through them.

After a month of cursing myself and everything under the sun, I feel liberated to be having sunny thoughts and look forward to beautiful energetic days. The best thing I have realized is that time heals. Everyone knows that but it takes patience to imbibe that knowledge. I am glad I am now learning that aspect too. Recovery seemed slow and languid at first but now the flicker of hope is getting bright. I welcomed New Year languishing in bed the whole day. But I know that the days ahead would be just the reverse.

Getting sick has also made me realize that I have a whole lot of good friends and well-wishers who have made me overcome the not so exciting moments. I thank God for all of them. Now that I am getting better I have a whole list of things to do, but for the moment let me enjoy my first experience of actually ‘feeling normal’ :)